We canceled our April FET because I didn't feel 100% ready. And then I felt ready for the May cycle. It was the only thing I was looking forward to. THE ONLY THING. May all of a sudden was full of possibility, or at least it was a month in which I could start to move forward.
And then MY FUCKING PROTOCOL GOT SWITCHED to Ganirelix. And now baseline lands in the middle of our Bermuda vacation, which I had planned around my Lupron protocol. And now I get to cancel ANOTHER FUCKING CYCLE.
Am I ever going to move forward? Am I ever going to bring a baby home? Because the universe sure is making it pretty impossible for me. PCOS, anovulation, the huge loss of my twins, canceled cycle, canceled cycle. No amount of tequila will stop me from crying all night.
Oh no, I'm so sorry the timing won't work out :-( That is so unbelievably frustrating. Hugs lady.
ReplyDeleteOh Krystal, I am SO sorry! It is so hard when you are so ready and then plans change. Ugh!! You drink that tequila girl. You deserve it!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks girls. I did end up drinking a lot of tequila... and I am definitely still paying for it!
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