Our pregnancy announcement pictures
One year ago on August 31st, we received the best news we have ever gotten: we were pregnant. After 23 months of trying to start a family, we were finally blessed. I should have known right away that we were having twins: I took a test early (I simply could not wait for beta) and the test line was stronger than the control line. To commemorate this occasion, we went to Galena and scattered flowers in the Galena river right under the bridge we used to take our pregnancy announcement pictures.
under the bridge where we took pregnancy announcement pictures a year go
Flowers before we scattered them in the river
The arrangement came with three roses, and I couldn't help but think of Conner, Ben, and Baby C
Galena River
Just a few flowers in the river before we threw the rest in
Before we threw the flowers into the river, I told Conner and Benjamin that we loved them. It was a sunny, beautiful day outside and we were in a good mood. As we were tossing flowers, I saw two white butterflies playing together before they joined two other butterflies. For a moment, I thought maybe it was my boys telling me they were there with us.
Tim and I didn't say much. There was so much to say, but I don't think either of us knew where to start. It was just as well. No words can do justice to what I feel and how much I love my sons. He simply his arm around me and we watched the flowers slowly drift down the river, and we walked away.
Dragon tales and the water is wide
Pirate's sail and lost boys fly
Fish bite moonbeams every night
and I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
My love will fly to you each night on angel's wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
The rocket racer's all tuckered out
Superman's in pajamas on the couch
Goodnight moon will find the mouse
and I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
My love will fly to you each night on angel's wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
God bless mommy and matchbox cars
God bless dad and thanks for the stars
God hears "amen," wherever we are
and I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
My love will fly to you each night on angel's wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
What a sweet day! Butterflys always seem to show up when I think of our babies too!
ReplyDeleteI feel like so many loss moms see butterflies, reminding them of their babies. I never used to like them, but now I kind of see the significance.
DeleteSuch a beautiful way to honor such a special day. I believe our loved ones send us signs to let us know they are close.
ReplyDeleteThey danced as butterflies, fragile and lovely.
Whispers among the flowers.
Thank you for sharing, that was lovely. I also believe we get signs from our loved ones, we just need to be open to them.
Deletecatching up on you - the placental bleed must be so scary, I'm keeping you and baby C in my constant thoughts and prayers!
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ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful way to memorialize such a special day. You're a real special lady Krystal. This post is so moving, personal and pure and there's no holding back. I love the poem too. I think the butterflies may have been a sign. :) I sure believe in them.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. The poem is actually a Dixie Chicks song that we played at their memorial (and I named this blog after a line in the song). I can't listen to it without thinking of them.
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