For everyone reading this. I know other baby loss moms can understand what it is like to lose friends over such a devastating loss. They shy away from us because they don't understand, and even more sadly, do not care to understand. We scare them. We're bad luck. They say offensive things and are not patient when they realize that we're not over this yet... nor will we ever be. We find support in unexpected places. Everyone reading this has posted their support here or sent me private emails, offering prayers and kind words. You will never really know what all of that means to me.
This morning I received an email from our wedding photographer. She was riding her bike through the forest where we took one of our engagement shoots (she's photographed us for our wedding like... 4 times?). She thought of us and wanted to let me know she was still praying for us.
It's been 8 months. Our pastor told everyone who attended Ben and Conner's memorial never to forget about us, even years from now, because we would still be dealing with our loss. Most have forgotten. But others haven't. For all of you, I am grateful.
Thank you for reading, listening to me ramble, complain, and pour my heart out. Most of all, thank you for remembering Conner and Benjamin.
Its nice to know your boys are still being remembered and thought of. I always appreciate little things like that too, unfortunately they're far and few between.
ReplyDeleteYour boys will never be forgotten and their names will be said often!!! :)
ReplyDeleteHugs back to you! Being thankful has always been helpful for me to feel good about the wonderful things in life, like being thankful that you are the mom to 3 beautiful little ones.
ReplyDeleteI lub your boys!!! I am so glad some of the important people aren't forgetting about them! I am always pleasantly surprised when my friends or family say or do something to remember my little ones. HUGS momma! :)
ReplyDeleteWhile I don't know you in real life, I check your blog daily and every time I do I say a prayer for your boys. Even though I don't "know" them, they are thought about often here in Wisconsin!
ReplyDeleteso sweet for your wedding photographer to still be thinking of your boys like that! Your three sweet babies get lots of prayers from NJ!
ReplyDeleteYou are so right that we find support in places we never imagined possible. Some close friends are now very distant, while others have stepped up to the plate. However, none can relate as much as the ladies I've found online through BBC, blogs and the ones that attend the SIDS support group iRL. Thanks for being there for me. I'm here for you if you need anything even just a shoulder to cry on, on the tough days. And I sincerely believe that Conner, Ben and Preston have become fast friends <3
ReplyDelete<3 <3 <3 I so get it.
ReplyDeleteAgreed- big hugs Krystal & none of us will ever forget... -Lynn
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