Forget-me-nots
I still carry you, but no one sees you. No one realizes how my arms feel. I have a tremendous weight of not having my two babies here with me on earth, but I also feel the lightness that stems from the joy that you two even exist. I speak to you all the time, everyday, but it looks like I am speaking to empty space. People refer to both of you as "lost," but that could not be further from the truth. I know exactly where you are. You boys are right next to me. You are watching over me. You reside in both my heart and in heaven. I feared that I would never find you anywhere, but it did not take me long to realize that you are both everywhere. You both leave signs that you are near, and I hope that my heart continues to stay open to those signs. I pray that I can be the mother that you both deserve and that I will find a way to keep your legacy alive. Never forgotten, never gone, always here, always loved.
SIgns are so true! Whenever I find myself missing Aaron I will suddenly see a butter fly...one night we went to the baseball game and I was really missing him--then there on a railing in the middle of crowds going up and down the stairs was the most beautiful blue butterfly. After I took its picture if flew away...and I just know that was Aaron saying hello. Our boys are never far from our heart--even though they may be from others minds. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteYou're a beautiful writer. Your boys are with you always. I just wish it was in your arms instead of your heart. Hugs
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